Everything an individual experiences is experienced by The Myself. Everything that happens to or is done to the individual happens to or is done to The Myself.
In any individual's life, The Myself is the most important entity to that individual. It is very personal. The Myself is the individual and is the personal identity of the individual.
Every human being is different from all other human beings. There is a proven constant; which is George Frankl's proof that human nature is fundamentally good, all babies are born good and loving.
In his clinical practice, Frankl used hypnosis to regress the patient to a traumatic event, most often trauma which had happened in early childhood. That is to say that Frankl helped the patient relax deeply enough so that the hidden memory of trauma could be made conscious - the patient could remember and relive what had happened. While re-experiencing the event, the patient would tell Frankl what was happening; and then together Frankl and the patient would properly examine and analyse the trauma, and so overcome the effects of the trauma. Often the trauma had occurred in very early infancy, occasionally even in the later stages before birth. In all cases, the patient remembered what had happened to himself or herself: no matter how young he or she had been at the time of the event, reliving the event the patient recognised it as happening to himself or herself. That is to say, that from the first we are The Myself: we always have our own personal identity, which we recognise as our own personal identity.
Human nature is fundamentally good, all babies are born good and loving, therefore The Myself is good.
The Myself is constant, it does not change. We all know, 'I am good.'
But behaviour is very often perverse, bad. We know that psychological trauma affects the behaviour of the traumatised. There is The Myself which is good; and we may say there is The Not Myself. For instance, our two year old infants develop the capacity to tell lies. We have seen that the capacity to tell lies is an effect of early phylogenic trauma. An individual may choose to tell a lie, but the two year old infant does not choose to have the capacity to tell lies. Most individuals know when they are telling a lie, and most adults know that it is wrong to lie, or feel it is wrong. We may understand that to lie is is not the behaviour of The Myself. To lie is the behaviour of The Not Myself: deceitful behaviour is an effect of trauma and is an imposition on The Myself.
The psychological development of our species is recalled in the phases of development: the yelling two year old; the three year old completely unable to be still; the terrified angry screaming at 3 1/2 years old, all mark events in our early human history. The 'latency period' may be identified with the half million years our ancestors spent making stone axe heads at Olorgesailie and other sites; some children at nine or ten years old have 'tantrums' which may be recognised as attempts by our ancestors to break free of the imprisonment of fruitless labour at Olorgesailie - and so on through adolescence to menopause and beyond: all these modern behaviours mark events of our evolution.
We may say that the natural progress and naturally good behaviour of The Myself is interrupted by these unresolved traumas. We may say that The Not Myself is exhibited in the perverse behaviours which arise out of these unresolved traumas.
After psychological trauma the individual's behaviour will be affected. We may understand that the traumatised individual is deeply confused psychologically by the event. We may also speculate that the individual's behaviour changes to protect The Myself; the self and the sense of self. After trauma, The Myself retreats, hides, while The Not Myself presents to the world. The Myself is protected from further harm by The Not Myself.
The Myself becomes taboo. With the long history of unresolved traumas, the true nature of humanity is taboo; the true good nature of humanity must scarcely be mentioned or recognised.
In The Three Faces of Humanity, in the section on Islam, Frankl states: We may trace this belief of women's fundamental sin, which makes them hide not only their sexual desire but also their personality, to a trauma in primeval time, their cultural infancy.
We may recognise that the trauma in primeval time was a huge naturally occurring catastrophe; and I speculate that it was a meteorite which fell from the sky and landed in the area of modern Afghanistan. The destruction was terrible, and the effects on our ancestors living in the area of the site were terrible.
The effects of a massive catastrophe are felt across much perhaps all of the planet, but those ancestors living in the immediate area were devastated.
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Observing our two year old infants now we see the breakthrough of the repressed memory of unresolved phylogenic trauma in the yelling, the development of the capacity to tell lies, and the high incidence of digestive difficulties. From all of this we may understand that a massive event happened when our ancestors were the equivalent of two year old infants now.
A traumatised infant believes that he or she must have caused the bad thing to happen (and this is true also of older children and adults who suffer trauma. It is interesting that human beings believe themselves to be responsible for events which they could not possibly cause, and yet refuse to accept responsibility for their actual perverse and damaging behaviours.)When our ancestors were the equivalent of two years old a massive catastrophe happened which still affects our infants now throughout the world. It is really not surprising that the ancestors living in the area where the event happened reacted most strongly, and believed that they must have caused the event which they witnessed and lived through.
At that time, naturally, the matriarchs - the female elders among the mothers - were the leaders of the primeval society. It is therefore natural that the matriarchs would believe themselves to have caused the event. It seems obvious to me that the matriarchs at that time of catastrophe would hide themselves, in terror, amazement and shame; terrified both of the event and of the extraordinary power they believed themselves to possess, amazed by their presumed power, and deeply ashamed of what they believed must have been their use of that power.
This hiding has become a deeply entrenched tradition, pre-dating Islam but incorporated into Islamic practice. A modern woman in a strictly Islamic country will want to be free to walk unveiled in her own town, enjoying the sunshine and smiling with neighbours. She will find it awful to be forced to hide herself, to be subject to her father, husband, sons on pain of beating - or worse - if she does not submit to the will of the man. And she will not have any conscious understanding of the origins of her predicament.
And the men do not understand it, either. The origins of this pernicious tradition are lost in the mists of ancient pre-history. I speculate that the men who behave so savagely believe that they are doing what is right: the men believe they are obeying an ancient law set down by the matriarchs of ancient times. The men believe they are obeying the mothers, and protecting their society from harm.
The tradition starts out of a natural catastrophe which happened when our ancestors were the equivalent of two years old; the matriarchs then, who were naturally in charge, believed that they must have caused the event; the matriarchs hid themselves; and the males guarded their wives, kept them hidden and kept them safe.
The photos of terrorists soldiers now in Afghanistan show the soldiers in uniform with their faces entirely covered, except for the eyes. Perhaps there is some military reason for having their faces covered like this; but from a psychoanalytic perspective it seems clear to me that these men are hiding their personalities, just as their womenfolk are hidden. They are exhibiting The Not Myself.
Let us consider The Myself.
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Human nature is fundamentally good, all babies are born good and loving.
The Myself is actively creative, and is incapable of destructiveness. We created ourselves, humanity created itself out of the materials given, reaching out in evolution. And The Myself is creative in the act of being; we are part of the living organism of the planet, and of the universe; what The Myself does naturally contributes to the continuing creation of our world.
The Myself experiences the intense, wonderful excitement of being; and experiences the deep peace of being within the creative world of which we are part, to which we belong, and to which we naturally contribute.
What is our purpose? Observing the creatures in the garden, I have seen that even the tiniest insect has purpose as it scurries over pebbles; that even the slugs evidently have purpose in their activity; I've seen that the slugs clean the garden, and that they are better gardeners than I am; the slugs remove seedlings which won't flourish where I've planted them; and the slugs recycle food waste in the composter, and remove crumbs left after the picnic. But what is our purpose?
We have evidently lost our purpose. We are naturally good and loving, naturally creative, but it seems to me that everything we do as adults, all our activities beyond our natural functions, are destructive. Babies have purpose.
Babies and little children have the purpose of love. Infants who are treated with at least a minimal level of kindness are confident in their love, in the power of their love. They know themselves, they know themselves and the world as loving, and they know The Myself.
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Orgasm is one of the limited ways in which adult human beings experience reality. (Please bear in mind that clitoral spasm is not orgasm, and that vaginal orgasm is necessary for women.)
The Myself lives within reality, and sexual orgasm is only one expression of the creative libido. The Myself experiences reality in the bodily functions and through all senses: touch, taste, smell, sight, hearing. The Myself experiences reality with the senses adults have almost completely lost, especially empathy.
The Myself recognises itself as being at the centre of the universe; and understands that each individual also recognises himself or herself as being at the centre of the universe.
The Myself is loving. Love is both altruistic and selfish. The lover protects and promotes the beloved out of self interest and out of altruism.
The Myself lives in the loving and exhilarating reality of life on earth.
The Myself is who we really are.
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It is the function of every individual human being to be himself or herself. We are born with identity, and with sense of identity; each one knows who he or she is: each one knows The Myself.
It is our function to be, to express that individual self; for each one to be himself or herself individually creative within the creation and continuing evolution of the species.
Ontogenic difficulties, traumas in an individual's life, will make obstacles to the full expression of the individual self. But it is, of course, the unresolved phylogenic traumas which make it so difficult for individuals within the species, and for the entire species to function properly.
There is a succession of taboos which prevents us individually and as a species from fulfilling our natural creative function. The yelling phase of our two year old infants marks the breakthrough of a repressed memory of phylogenic trauma: we want to remember. The taboos ensure that we do not remember; very few adult individuals have any personal memory of being two years old; and even fewer have any memory of being younger than two years old. But we were there; each one of us has been here throughout our human life span.
The Myself is here, is each one of us, throughout our lives. Know The Myself is fundamentally good.
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The Myself is that which is fundamentally good; is part of that fundamental goodness.
The baby is born in the natural loving psychological state of The Myself. As the infant develops through the phylogenic phases, he or she enters the Id state and then the Ego state, as identified, named and described by Sigmund Freud.
The Myself lives in the real world. We are so far separated from reality that it is difficult for an adult to describe the real world as experienced by The Myself. We may know that in The Myself state the infant recognises his or her own unique being and personality within the world, and experiences the sense of belonging within the world. In The Myself state the infant recognises all life and life forms as being part of himself or herself; the infant knows, recognises and understands distinctions and differences, and experiences the sense of belonging personally within the world among all other life forms. We may speculate that, within The Myself state, the infant experiences all manifestations - bodies of water, rock formations, rain, wind in the trees etc - as part of himself or herself. In The Myself state, the infant is unquestionably included in the magnificent adventure of life on earth. And we may further recognise that all creatures naturally belong within The Myself state.
The Super-Ego, as identified, named and described by Freud, represents a difficulty to understanding. Recognising that human nature is fundamentally good, some affirm that the Super-Ego is The Good, or may say it is God as The Good. The more common interpretation of the Super-Ego is of a negative, frightening, interfering force, or psychological state. We may perhaps see that the Super-Ego, indeed like the Ego, is a product of the unresolved phylogenic traumas. The Super-Ego acts as the internal policeman who keeps us in check, who ensures that we do not break the taboos, the conditions inflicted on us as a result of these traumas. Now that George Frankl has proved that human nature is fundamentally good, it will be healthier for us to see the Super-Ego as The Good, a force which encourages us to live within the real world.
I should state here that we must not forget ontogenic difficulties experienced by individuals, and remember that ontogenic difficulties are often powerfully damaging to the individual. However, it is also necessary to recognise that it is our troubled phylogeny which produces the conditions for ontogenic difficulties.
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The Myself is surrounded by a massive taboo, a wall of taboos. We may understand that this massive psychological block was designed by our early ancestors to protect The Myself, to protect their true good selves from harm: the wall of taboos is intended as a defensive mechanism.
But the wall of taboos is destructive. The Myself is trapped by the taboos. The taboos block expression of our true good human nature.
In response to the phylogenic psychological traumas, we have hidden our true good human nature, to the extent that human beings as a species are very wary of expressions of love: we distrust love, we distrust pleasure, we hide our love and pleasure in life: mothers who naturally want to love their babies are often wary of feeling love for their babies, wary of expressing love for their babies. As a species, though we talk of love, we are afraid of love; we are afraid that if we acknowledge and express our love openly, we will be punished by disaster. Many parents cannot express or feel affection for their children.
Our babies, infants and children live within and express the fundamentally good human nature. They encounter the phylogenic difficulties, which include infant colic, teething difficulties, the yelling and development if the capacity to tell lies at two years old, the euphoria of the three year olds, the screaming in rage and terror at 3 1/2 years old, and so on. As a species we have 'forgotten' the causes of these difficulties, we have hidden the causes of these difficulties from conscious memory. In addition, our babies also encounter repression from society: the Christian dogma of original sin; and Sigmund Freud's representation of the Id, the psyche of the infant, as something wild and bad are two incidences of societal repression. Original sin and Freud's views on the Id have been very widely accepted as true.
But George Frankl has proved that human nature is fundamentally good. It is necessary that we recognise our troubled evolution, and must learn to listen to the children. It has often been said that we must learn from our children.
When the news is very bad, I console myself with the thought that I won't be human forever, that eventually I will be free. This consolation is sad, perhaps even perverse: human life, the experience for all life on earth should be a pleasure, exciting and interesting; it should not be necessary to look for freedom only in death.
We may understand that the terrorists look for freedom and happiness in death, and unconsciously accept the wall of taboos surrounding The Myself; the terrorists feel that there is nothing they can do to free themselves from the wall of taboos. Their frustration and fury expresses itself in extremely perverse and nasty behaviour.
We may understand that tyrants and bullies also unconsciously accept the wall of taboos surrounding The Myself; the tyrants feel that they must protect The Myself from exposure. We may understand that supporters of tyrants and bullies unconsciously recognise that the tyrants' behaviour is intended to protect The Myself. Tyrants and bullies unconsciously accept the wall of taboos, but as a species we have 'forgotten' the origin of these taboos, and do not consciously acknowledge the taboos. As a species our behaviour is very often driven by the taboos, but we do not consciously acknowledge the existence of the taboos.
We may see that we are afraid for The Myself; are we also afraid of The Myself?
Though we are afraid of The Myself, afraid of our true good human nature, we must learn to free The Myself. We must learn from the children.
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We may understand The Myself as the psyche of the new born child and young infant. The phylogenic disturbances which breakthrough in infancy lead to what we call the Freudian Id; and the Freudian Ego state follows.
We must recognise that there are phylogenic terrors which afflict our species. We must understand that the unresolved traumas suffered by our species in early evolution, continue to affect humanity: our ancestors were confronted by catastrophes, which terrorised them and which still underlie our modern lives: we are still terrorised by repressed memories of the unresolved psychological traumas of our early evolution.
There are many questions. There is one which I have not asked: why is humanity so special? Or why do we perceive that humanity is so special? We have taken to ourselves the 'right' to rule the planet, and we have caused very great harm in our rule. Perhaps the question is foolish: perhaps we have no special place in the cosmic scheme. But we have presumed a special quality, special rights which we have called God given. It may be easy to decide we have been mistaken in the assumption that we are special. It would be better to accept responsibility, and to repair the harm we have done.
The Myself is consistent. The baby is born in full knowledge of his or her identity; the baby has a sense of identity within the world, and an innate understanding of the world. The baby is confident in his or her own identity, and the baby recognises that the mother is separate, though very close in the baby's love. Its own sense of identity, the identity of the mother and others, and the baby's own love are axiomatic to the baby: the baby knows its identity, the mother's identity and its own love all without question as the true state of things.
The Myself is confident. The baby is confident in his or her own identity, the mother's identity, and the baby is confident in its own power of love, the strength and innate value of its own love.
The unresolved phylogenic traumas lead to terrible psychological disturbance in the species. We recognise that the Ego tries to impose order on the Id. We may understand that our ancient ancestors tried to 'forget' the horrors of past traumas, and determined to go forward. We must recognise that we are constantly pulled back by the repressed memories of unresolved traumas.
We may rationally speculate that our early ancestors wanted to protect The Myself from further psychological harm; that trying to 'forget', building psychological - indeed, neurological - blocks is an attempt to protect The Myself. But we must recognise that in trying to protect The Myself we imprison The Myself: we have trapped our species and the planet in a prison of taboos. The Myself, the true nature of the human species, is trapped in frustration, which we sometimes call civilisation. The good intentions of our ancestors has caused very great harm. But these good intentions were the result of trauma; we may say that our ancestors felt bullied and their actions are therefore not the actions of free will.
The Myself is always present within each of us throughout the individual life. We experience the phylogenic disturbances; we adopt the Ego state; but all the while The Myself persists. The Myself is our true psychological state: we always know, each one of us 'who I really am' despite the burdens of our phylogeny.
George Frankl proved neurologically that human nature is fundamentally good, and that all babies are born good and loving. He told me that I must speak for the children. What I have called The Myself is the result of this work he gave me. I beg we learn to recognise the true nature of our babies and children, and come to understand the true nature of humanity.
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In one of his books - and I apologise that I can't remember which - George Frankl quotes an incident: a man is working at his desk, and his four year old daughter is playing with used matches on the carpet near him; the child seems happy and is playing quietly, until she suddenly screams and begs her daddy to 'take the witch away'; in the little girls game, one of the used matches has become a terrifying witch.
Frankl told me that it is alright to be afraid, but that I must be very brave, I must have courage.
Human beings are beset by fears. For instance, many individuals suffer phobias, agoraphobia, claustrophobia and so on; and these fears are defined as extreme and irrational fears of specific objects or situations.
The little girl in the anecdote above became terrified of a used match, which had in her imagination become a witch, and it may seem that her fear was irrational: we do recognise that a used match is not a witch; and a four year old child knows this as well as an adult does. We may see that her fear of the match was perhaps irrational, but the match now represented something terrifying. We may then recognise that the fear itself is real.
We may understand that the fear is a breakthrough of a repressed memory of an ancient terror, a catastrophic event which caused our early ancestors great psychological trauma and distress.
I must here say that even in writing of these great fears, I become afraid; I recognise that the fear itself is real, and that it has physical consequences. The great phylogenic terrors of my species affect my body, while my brain stays clear. So it seems that my body is afraid, though my brain is unaffected by the fear!
The great phylogenic terrors afflicted our ancestors in the very early evolution of our species, at a time when humanity was in its infancy, perhaps three million years ago; and it is very difficult to bring such early events into consciousness. We must bring them into consciousness so that we may examine, analyse and overcome our deep terrors.
One way that we may recognise these terrors is simply by looking at human behaviour. We find evidence for the terrors in individuals affected by phobias; in war and other collective acts of violence; in individual acts of violence; in bullying in all its many forms; and in many other examples. There is very much evidence in human behaviour for our terrorised evolution. In examining perverse human behaviours, we may recognise that we in fact see a repetition of very early events; passed down the ages to us, something in the way that ancient stories are passed down to us. It is recognised that the stories come from a verbal tradition - they were told over generations long before the invention of writing. In the generations of telling, the stories will change, but remain essentially the same as the original stories. Similarly, in the catastrophes of our behaviour, we may see the original naturally occurring events, changed over millennia but essentially the same.
It is also necessary to bear in mind that the Ego defences, the taboos, are very strong, and that the taboos were set up to protect The Myself. This in itself represents a great challenge to facing, understanding and overcoming our distresses.
It is interesting that research shows that brain cells are present in the gut in the area of the solar plexus; and I remember that Frankl told me many years ago that the gut is the first brain. It may be that some physiological evidence for the phylogenic terrors might be found in the gut-brain.
I must emphasise that it is very important that we recognise and overcome our fears.
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We want to survive, and more than that, we want to continue our evolution successfully. It seems humanity is a species with an Idea, or Ideal which we seek to fulfil. I have considered the possibility that we and the world would be better if we gave up. I have tried to convince myself that the universe would be better without us. But we want to continue. The Myself seeks fulfilment.
There is another question which I have not asked: why of all the species has humanity been so severely affected by phylogenic catastrophe? We are apparently very different from the other life forms here, in that we seem to 'take it personally'; we feel personally responsible for traumatic events, apparently in a way which is not shared by the other species. I cannot answer this question, but I must ask it, and must re-emphasise that we are not responsible for naturally occurring disasters. However, we must recognise that we are responsible for our own actions. We recognise that in our violence we are imitating the violence of natural catastrophe, which we have no business to do. We must not imitate violence. We must seek to understand and overcome our difficulties by reason with love.
The Myself is very strong; and very stubborn. The Myself knows its own purpose and wants to achieve its aim. George Frankl proved that human nature is fundamentally good, all babies are born good and loving. We may be confident that the aim and purpose of The Myself is good and loving.
But we undermine ourselves. We cling to the taboos constructed in defence against the traumas. Each one of us is personally affected by these ancient traumas, and each one of us clings to the defensive taboos. We are very reluctant to give up the taboos; we feel that the taboos keep us safe. It is a huge struggle within us individually and collectively.
Does The Myself cling to the taboos? I cannot be sure, and perhaps this question is foolish. During our early evolution, our species encountered severe trauma and reacted by establishing defensive taboos. Our ancestors felt that to remember the traumatic events would be to repeat the traumatic events. The taboos are intended to protect us from remembering the traumas. But we see too clearly that this strategy does not work: the ancient memories break through in perverse behaviours, and the taboos prevent us from remembering the events and therefore prevent us from understanding our condition.
It is terrifying to remember these ancient traumas. The body itself seems to become fearful; and we have physiological symptoms for what are phylogenic conditions. But we must remember, we must bring these memories into consciousness. Our ancestors were equivalent of infants are now, and they did not have word language: they cannot tell us in words what they feel and why, though Frankl would certainly have been able to do what I cannot. But we now may recognise the events in the symptoms, the physiological, psychological and behavioural symptoms which so badly trouble us.
We must encourage The Myself. It knows, therefore we know the course we must take to achieve the aim of freeing our species, and continuing on our true evolutionary way.
It is frightening to investigate these difficulties; but it is often frightening to be human. We may say that the fear itself is a great part of the difficulty, and the fear itself adds to the difficulty we face. It is alright to be afraid, but we must be very brave, we must have courage.
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It is a covenant of fear. We do seem to be in a covenant with the ancient fear.
We must bear in mind that when this fear first afflicted our ancestors, humanity was in its infancy: this is a very ancient fear which affected our ancestors when they were infants, and the trauma of the fear caused them to regress further, This is very difficult to analyse. But as a first step in the process we must acknowledge that we are, as a species, very badly affected by fear.
We have discussed some of the ways in which we easily see the effects of fear. There are very many other ways. In many cultures, and to some extent in most cultures, women are regarded with fear and loathing. We have discussed this; but we may now begin to see that the bad treatment of women is part of the covenant with fear. Humanity acknowledges the power of the fear, by making continual sacrifices to the fear. And the taboos are an integral part of the covenant with fear.
The covenant with fear is individual and personal, as well as cultural and collective; ontogenic and phylogenic. At some point, usually in childhood, the individual learns to 'keep his or her head down', to 'knuckle under', not to 'make waves': we learn that we must give in to the power of the mother, the father, older siblings, teachers, our employers, doctors, and the state. Of course, we would not have a culture at all without the co-operation of the individuals within the society. But too often, the established authority is harsh or stupid; we are not asked to co-operate, we are required, even forced, to acquiesce. This is an insult to the individual. It is an insult to The Myself.
Let us try to understand the workings of the individual psyche in the process of establishing the covenant with fear. You may have observed that your friends and acquaintances present themselves to the world in one way, but that they are masking other aspects of themselves. It is well known that people very often hide aspects of their personality from public view. We are afraid that if we show ourselves fully, we will be unacceptable, condemned or in some way hurt: we hide to protect ourselves, apparently from each other.
Many women, including beautiful fresh faced young women, hide their faces behind layers of make up. Men often describe make up as 'war paint', part of the woman's armoury in the ancient battle of the sexes. But it is more true to say that women hide themselves with make up to protect their deep selves from censure or some unspecified harm.
Unspecified. We have no name for the fear which haunts us. We give it names: all the phobias, for instance, or Woman, or 'the enemy'; but we have no name for it, because it began to afflict our species before we had word language, and because the fear is hidden, the fear hides from our view. We hide from the fear, and we are so terrified of it that we dare not name it. The workings of the psyche within the individual seem to be something like: The Myself encounters the great trauma; the Id emerges - the psyche of the infant highly disturbed by the phylogenic breakthrough of the ancient traumas; and eventually the Ego comes to dominate the individual. The Ego is again the effect of phylogeny, though it differs within individuals. The Ego knows it must hide The Myself, to protect the individual from the effects of the ancient traumas. The Ego decides, consciously or unconsciously, in what way the individual will present him or herself to the world in order to be acceptable and to be safe.
It seems that the Ego, while hiding The Myself, the true self, tries to present a facsimile of The Myself, the true self. It is a very elaborate process. The Ego is taken by fear and anxiety, the Ego is afraid, but the Ego must be in the 'real' world of society. The Ego knows The Myself, the Ego knows its real self, but the Ego dare not present the true self to the world. The Ego must hide his or her true self from the world while at the same time be true to him or herself.
And meanwhile, The Myself grows highly frustrated by the process. We see outbreaks of frustration in our infants, and again many children of 9 or 10 years old have what are described as 'tantrums', but are more rightly described as outbreaks of frustration against the numbing authority of family and teachers; and again we see outbreaks of frustration in our adolescence; all these are phylogenic breakthroughs.
We also see that many individuals become demented in old age. We may recognise that the struggle to continue hiding The Myself eventually becomes to difficult for such individuals, and eventually the nonsense of process overwhelms. Death, when The Myself is liberated at last, becomes a blessed release.
The Myself does not fight, and certainly does not want to hide. The Myself is confident and naturally proud. Oh, this fear. And if there is a more difficult species in the universe than humanity - I don't want to know about it!
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Oh, dear God, this fear. It is not real. But the effects of this great fear are very real. And there is so much of it.
In older age, all the breakthroughs of all the traumas which we have encountered throughout life, rise up again and may threaten to overwhelm the individual. This may affect women more often than it affects men. All my women friends in older age are taking anti-depressants, many are also on tranquillisers. And some also are addicted to alcohol and illegal drugs. I have witnessed older women have 'tantrums' in the street and even while driving, and to then be pleased with themselves. I call it Grandma Tantrums, which may sound funny, but is quite frightening to see. The power of the fear, and the struggle of the Ego to keep the fear under control are so great, that vast numbers of individuals cannot function without mind destroying drugs.
There is also the tragedy that very young children who have 'tantrums' are drugged, and are commonly known as Ritalin rats. This is monstrous, a monstrous abuse of children, and a monstrous misuse of drugs. Such children are very unlikely to mature into happy adulthood.
And what are we afraid of? We are afraid of the fear itself. But it seems we are afraid of death, because we cannot any more see the movement of life. When one dies, the energy released moves on, literally. The energy cannot become nothing. Before the fear came on us, our ancestors could see and feel the movement of the energy released. Our ancestors knew that they belonged in the world, the universe, knew that literally life goes on and each one knew he or she was an integral part of l ife. We have lost that knowledge, that certainty of life. And that more than anything frightens us.
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I would forget the fear, its consequences and its effects on us. So let us try to see The Myself more clearly. Let us try to uncover the true self of humanity.
The Myself, naturally, wants to be free: free of the fear and free to expand, to evolve, to be in the world of life, to be in the real world of the life of this planet. Free to experience the excitement, the thrill of living; the sheer joy of belonging in the world; to feel the wonders of beauty and of love, within the world, our real world.
We must free ourselves of the fear, free ourselves to experience the world properly, free ourselves to evolve.
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I was wrong to say above that The Myself is stubborn. I am stubborn; Ego is stubborn.
The Myself is of the natural world. The Myself is, as God is.